"The Hardest Life, The Greatest Experience"

 “The hardest life, the greatest experience” said by a homeless person that approached me. I wonder why he spoke at the right time. I am sitting beneath the sky and trying to search for some peace. Looking at the birds flying makes me wonder how their life is. Thinking about the future makes me trapped with my past. “Why am I still alive? What should I do?”. I was experienced sexual harassment by my own blood. The nightmares keep on haunting me. “Please go! I hate you! Mom! Help me….”, that’s the only thing that I remember. Talking about myself, I can describe myself as a talkative person, happy go lucky and always smiling but behind the smiles, there is hidden so much sadness. Growing up as an eldest in the family makes me think, to whom I should rely. “Of course, myself.”. Whenever I feel at my lowest, my best friend is myself. I motivate and heal her all because there was a child that was struggling with her own past wanting to be successful in future despites of the heartbreaks and tragedies.  

11 years I keep, no one knows about it. Nothing much that I want, I just want to be a happy girl with a happy life. Again, “The hardest life, the greatest experience”. Years by years, I realised that the more struggles you had, the more you know about life. Life is cruel and all negativity belongs to it but if you dig deeper, you will find joy and solutions on how to handle it. This life teaches you how to be independent. This life knows that you can do it. This life knows you are strong and willing to do anything to achieve your success. Birds chirping, knowing that I feel better now. “You are home Sania?” my mom asked. “Yes ma. Are you cooking?”. “Clean yourself first before you eat ya” my mom said. “Okay, ma”. That is how my routines are. And still, waiting for the next part on how life treats me.